My haircuts used to be six weeks apart. For 50 years I kept the style short, but now a year has passed us since the start of house arrest, I’ve grown some longer curls. I’ve even added to my shopping cart (online of course) barrettes and bands and clips (but not a comb or brush – that isn’t smart unless I want the frizz I try to thwart). I’ve lockdown-learned a touch of tressy art.
A day off (self-rewarded) with light rain outside, invites me to experiment with cooking, as a way to entertain myself, but also to produce the scent of pizza I’ve been craving. My intent to venture out was stymied by the cold. I have good cheese and onion. If I rolled a dough of almond flour, two eggs too, a little salt and butter, soon I’d hold a wedge to taste. I’ll see what I can do.
I love a young man in the City, who oughta be fined – he’s so pretty. His cuteness will floor any witness, at 4! With his birthday today here’s a ditty.
My father taught us love of analog, in logic, setting levels, any clock. It’s like a science simile – a cog escapement powering, tick-tock, an output with no staggered on/off shock, perceivable to senses from afar. He taught us how to angle and unlock a compass point, to show us where we are.
I lied to friends when I was 8 years old. I claimed that I could spin without a drop my hula hoop a million times. I told them once and thought their eyes would pop, but “no” they said, and then I didn’t stop repeating my assertion, hearing “no” thrice more before they said they had to go.
I figured they accepted my last “yes” – they didn’t argue when they went away, but something seemed a little off. I guess that’s why I felt dissatisfied dismay. They hadn’t looked convinced, but didn’t say another “no.” I grew a little sad, and took both claim and puzzle to my dad.
“A million times?” he questioned with a calm affect, affection in his hazel eyes. “How long,” he queried with an upturned palm, “do you think it would take to count that high?” The conversation filled me with surprise and comprehension. So my conscience grew – I learned a lie unmet is still untrue.
I plagiarized a poem when I was 6, I think – perhaps a little older then. I wrote the first 4 lines and tried to fix my poem by adding a quartet to them. The words I stole were not as good as mine, but stretched the piece to what I thought should be. I showed it and my dad pronounced it fine, which started a cascade of grief for me.
My loving folks asked questions and I balked. I really couldn’t speak for 5 to 8. They praised my work. They flattered and they talked about my future, saying what was great from child me would bloom as I mature. It left me feeling awkward and impure.
I saw my first wisteria Monday at 9 a.m., in 46 degrees. I shot a picture walking, on my way to stock my pantry with some groceries. The purple blossoms formed a scant array but promised spring in Berkeley more than bees. My own wisteria’s a west facade, and needs more time to flower in my yard.
So this is post three hundred sixty-six (I feared the lockdown might last several weeks). I didn’t know uncivil politics would so beleaguer us the flu would thrive. I’m used to home, and though the mask constricts my wind, I’m walking outside anyway. While vaccination may not mean a fix, I’m starting to revert to old techniques. But I’ll keep posting daily, for these kicks.
I got my second shot, but she did not – they took one look and her and said “Not now.” Her eyes were swollen shut, her skin was hot; her doctor doesn’t know the why or how.
A client died of Covid – he seemed well until he wasn’t. Doctors couldn’t block the dread cascade of organ failure hell (he wasn’t old or ill – we’re still in shock).
My children’s dad has problems with his heart that brought an ambulance, some tests, a scan, and soon the surgeon’s knife. He’s still a part of family – we care about the man.
But topping all the news of pain and death, we celebrate a baby drawing breath.
The dentist asked me how I’d travel home. “I walk.” “Up Market Street?” He looked aghast. But I’ve been walking all my life. I roam the streets to work or shop. My pace is fast and purposeful – I look and use my ears, and though I’ve seen and heard some off-their-meds or heads, in truth, in over 50 years, I met no threat to make me stop my treads.
The muggings are reported in the news as happening in areas of wealth. The streets are safer where more people choose to walk, so pace for several sorts of health. Catalysis by fear exacts a cost – If we stay in, our culture will be lost.