
Neurodivergent
means not trying to be weird,
for that’s your normal.

I didn’t fall; I’m taking extra care.
That stairway, though, is narrow, carpeted.
My left foot slipped from tread to empty air;
my heel impacted vinyl. Nothing bled,
but now my sole objects, and I’m aware
of torquing knee. I’m sitting down instead
of walking. Not at risk for slip-and-fall,
the time to heal a heel can still appall.

I heard about the lingering effect
from recent illness – belly cramps and worse.
An intermittent pain. I don’t detect
a cause and I’m not qualified to nurse,
but now I’m here I see, and I expect
it may be feeling fighting a submerse.
An anecdote I share gives her access –
and so some words dilute the source of stress.

Compendium? That wasn’t my intent
when I began to write four months ago.
If anything, an epic’s what I meant:
a spine of narrative from which would flow
vignettes and episodes I thought might grow
to 90,000 words or even more.
The path revealed. The process went from core
to fruiting branch, and nourished me. I see
I didn’t draft the shape I planned before.
Compendium instead’s inviting me.

The tenant who inhabits upper front
acts selfish and entitled more than not.
Complaining to an owner, she was blunt
and rude. If she has style she forgot
to show it. She was raised to be a snot –
her single mom’s permissive, passive, false.
But here’s the thing – the prior dweller shot
connections too – is something in the walls?

Three plans this week got canceled through no act
of mine. One friend’s fatigue sent her to bed.
Another’s scattered mind mistook a fact,
forgot the date, and stayed at home, she said,
awaiting window blinds. I heard no tact
but gracefully I changed my plan instead.
And now today’s event won’t see the light.
I wish I’d gotten news of that last night.

The lesson lasting from a lavish meal
is I’m too old to eat and drink so much.
It entered easily, with great appeal,
but exit isn’t graceful, and the touch
of indigestion, borne with gas, is such
that I will make an effort to recall
this aftermath, this gripping inner clutch,
and next time I’ll decline to eat it all.

It’s not majestic ocean on display.
No mountain top provides wide-angled view.
A canyon isn’t carved and can’t convey
by marbled walls and caverns glimpses to
prehistory. Instead my mundane way
is common and pedestrian. In lieu
of spectacle, what soothes my eyes and feet
is dappled shade and verdance on the street.