The Covid exploded some plans for the week, but didn’t sack me or my kids. I won’t see my brother; the drug that I seek (that nasty bacteria rids) will have to be purchased an alternate way (but I can adjust to that change). A wrench has been thrown at some tasks. I’m okay, and sorry that he’s feeling strange.
Last week they hugged me with a sweet request: Can we make brownies? was the eager ask. (I overnight most Fridays, not as guest but more a member – up for such a task). We browsed 4 recipes and voted best the one that would allow we 3 to bask while cooking in the light of a cartoon – nice projects on an autumn afternoon.
I’m teeming with well-merited fatigue. I left my San Francisco bed at five, and readied (doing puzzles) for the league of love called Cottage Club. We always thrive with Switch and iPad screens, and on intrigue supplied by Dahl or Lewis. I revive enough to journey home. I lock my lair, and book in hand I take the napping chair.
We started choosing near a year ago the way we’d celebrate her jubilee. We tossed ideas for places to and fro; across the pond we landed plans for three, and added half a week in NYC (forever fun and pausing on our way back home). It’s getting close enough that we are contemplating ventures for each day.
I wouldn’t write these stanzas, but what stuck inside my busy head was strident-speak by someone I’d admire if she’d tuck away the vehemence and her technique of loud opinionation. What the fuck is gained by shooting down with a critique a helpful phrase an expert to me spoke? “Well, that’s one woman’s notion,” was her poke.
“You seem to have strong feelings,” I replied. She stammered something then and took a beat. The vehemence without a sputter died, and her expression shifted to a sweet acknowledgment she never meant the heat. Did I unearth a clue? When she’s a bitch, can I by parent-speaking trick-entreat a testy cranky attitude to switch?
I caught these purple people with my phone as I proceeded Tuesday on my way to one of three appointments. T-shirts shone and stature charmed. They seemed to all obey the lead, and two attendants didn’t sway their watch. Perhaps the strollers couldn’t catch the house about to edge their steps. I may have been the only witness to this match.
I’m channeling The Princess and The Pea. Instead of bed, I’m sensing in my neck an irritated spot that cautions me to sniff not blow. It’s like a tiny speck of incorrect two experts cannot see or feel. I’ve had for years a movement check left side, so maybe that relates to this. Or it could just be more of agedness.
I had the unit cleaned two days ago. It’s almost like I knew the air would chill. Today the inside temperature – below the 67 mark – did not until late afternoon reach 70, although I put the fireplace through morning drill. This early cold is nothing I remember, but I’m igniting fire in September.
It’s like a trope – “I’ve never been this age before.” I say it often cause it’s true, and though we’ve books and references to gauge the drastic strokes and lapses that accrue, I write about the minor stuff – a page on aches or stuttered sleep, a journal through diurnal slippage. I’ve a new intent – collecting words addressing this descent.
September brings the Garden Cosmos up. Unplanned or sown the lanky volunteer emerges, shoots to height, and sprouts a cup of purple that surrounds a central sphere in split-pea hue bedecked with yellows. Near the blooms the hummingbirds and bees are seen in flit and flutter sipping autumn cheer, a-frolic in a yard’s last gasp of green.