Not Yet

alice-in-wonderland-stayne--knave-of-hearts-eye-patch-adult-69047[1]

I used to qualify my history
by stating, with a grin, the numbered years
I’d earned of marital recovery,
enjoying comprehension from my peers.
But now I know how much I thought was jest
was actually a clue to plumb the truth.
I tolerate a lonesome life the best,
abhorring love’s frustration since my youth.

I honor friction, and I value stress,
but daily irritations make me craze.
It’s been a quarter century and, yes:
I suffer rash eruptions from those days.
Sometimes I want a friend – I take a chance,
but irritation swiftly swamps romance.

Posted in Poetry | Leave a comment

Raincoats

rainy-day

My raincoat’s adequate. There’s nothing wrong
with it, except I never want to wear
the piece. I’ve had it several years too long,
my mother’s is identical (the pair
of us don’t like alike), and I’m too bored
to use it now. I ordered something new,
but details of my purchase were ignored;
I didn’t get the item I was due.

I tried a different merchant and design,
and tried to track the coat delivery.
A crazy neighbor stole it by the time
I learned it left! That store was good to me –
reshipping at no cost, delay, or pain.
But now the forecast hasn’t any rain…

Posted in Poetry, Weather | Leave a comment

Bad Advice

suggestion_box[1][1]

I married, bore two children, and divorced,
and then I tried again to be a wife,
but had to end that too – my talent coursed
another way, and I determined life
for me was happier, at least for then,
without a live-in mate and compromise.
The kids have flown, I’m solo still, and men
are present, but nobody occupies
my home with me.

So I don’t give advice
on how to build what both my kids have made.
They’ve chosen well – respectful, loving. Twice
I’ve had examples of good love displayed.
I won’t be like the friend who seldom tries
to move, but counsels me on exercise.

Posted in Lessons, Poetry | Leave a comment

Reflexology

flashbacks

A summer evening, doors ajar, I hear
some pops I barely register: the sound
of breeze in garden trees (I have four near),
but then I notice and I look around –
there’s flame that rears beyond the neighbor’s fence!
Ten seconds and I know it wasn’t lit
deliberately – it’s crime or accident –
response arrives and pros extinguish it.

When next I hear the pop and creak of trees,
my body clenches and my heartbeats pound.
The aftermath includes anxieties
surprising me. I similarly found
I flirt, but past events soon shift my whim
to tell the fellow all that’s wrong with him.

Posted in Poetry | Leave a comment

Rainy Day Errand

rainy-day

I see a red regatta in the rain –
five-pointed leaves deposited in clots
on white concrete, that leave a crimson stain:
so liquidambar drops a flock of yachts.

I see a sea of gulls stake claims to ground
that dry’s monopolized by kids at sport.
But rain today all plans for playing drowned,
displaying brightest white of birds athwart.

And as I travel homeward with the food,
my wipers dashing raindrops off the glass,
I catch a sight and whimsy sends my mood
to laughing as I let the traffic pass:
a wiper on a silver car, askew,
that tries to sweep the air it’s moving through.

Posted in Poetry, Weather | Leave a comment

Unintended Consequences

png-glitch-paeth-detail

An unintended consequence produced,
collateral to innovation’s wit,
is often the resulting wave that’s loosed
upon our culture. Inappropriate
as rent increases born of residents’
attempts to beautify their neighborhood,
the damage no one meant can be immense,
irradiating us with bad-in-good.

The Internet kills independent stores.
The cellular has taken down phone booths.
The chefs appear to cook for Uber scores,
and neither cash nor bar-soap’s used by youths.
We’re homo sapiens. We’re smart. We’re smug.
And we evolve as randomly as bugs.

Posted in Poetry | Leave a comment

Body Mod

nose

My body mod’s invisible, advised
and done by docs. Four teeth are rooted in
titanium. My lenses are comprised
of goods with laboratory origin –
I focus at all distances, and see
specifics unidentified before.
I own a hidden disability
(if reproductive amputations score).

My lobes are pierced (once each), but that was done
(as long as I was in the doctor’s chair
for something else), at nearly 21 –
so I could buy the posts I longed to wear.
I choose for comfort, quiet color, ease,
to cart around my eccentricities.

Posted in Poetry | Leave a comment

No Worries

a_e_newman1_featured

I worried so when I was young, I built
my frets to threats against all inner peace.
While other Jews were specialists at guilt,
I nurtured my anxiety’s increase.
Now doubtless I’ve surpassed my mother’s skill,
envisioning the ways things can go wrong –
I’ve agitated often with a will
that wouldn’t quit and couldn’t be more strong.

I tried to reason worry gone. I knew
my dreams contained no omens and my fears
were realized almost never. Yet I grew
no less a nervous wreck by adding years.
But that was yesterday; old age forbids
appropriating worry from my kids.

 

Posted in Aging, Poetry | Leave a comment

Break

suitcase[1]

I’m taking a break.

I need time to adjust to some changes, and space in which to stretch.

I’ll be back.

Posted in Uncategorized | Leave a comment

National Anthem

anthem
When I was young, my father musicked me
(by vinyl records and his reel-to-reel)
with opera, Broadway tunes and symphony,
in folksongs and their singalong appeal,
and Souza marches played by Army bands,
with jazz and ragtime, blues and their reverse,
and anthems from assorted foreign lands:
We all agreed “Finlandia” was first.

Admitting ours is difficult to sing,
the tune too forced to merit the attempt,
and words so weak they signify no thing
worth standing for, I scoffed and never dreamt
a swamp of fools would call it powerful,
and cast it as the season’s golden bull.

Posted in Legends, Poetry | Leave a comment