Parallel Lines Meet at My Place

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Approaching home improvement with a plan,
I marshaled funds and interviewed four pros.
I paid attention to what can’t and can
be done, and chose a team that surely knows
construction, plumbing, wiring, paint and tile.
I backed off then to see what they could do.
And most their work showed expertise and style,
except for wall mounts slightly out of true.

Complaining gently to the gardener –
how could they fail to note a crooked cant? –
he clucked as if he heard my words for sure,
and then installed the planter box aslant.

Perhaps straight edges aren’t meant to be;
I guess I’ll call my house “Infinity.”

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The Door Handle

BART door handle

Invited to a lunch I couldn’t duck,
I thought I’d make the transit nice for me.
I’d stroll to BART and ride, and then I’d tuck
another walk in the vicinity
of San Francisco Bay. So I made use
of toilet in the station, trying not
to touch a surface – that was my excuse
for exiting one-fingered. I forgot
how heavy is the handle of that door.
My finger shot pain through my lower arm,
and then my wrist complained that it was sore.
And though I doubt it’s done me lasting harm,
I feel a little humbled and surprised
at evidence I’m finger-compromised.

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Misplacements

Misplacements

Disruption I invited took me out
of house and habit, for a quarter year.
I packed away my comforts, moved about
three miles to the south, into a sphere
of love and friendship, where I learned what plays
on television from a network feed.
My nights included ads and talk; my days
had games and shopping trips I didn’t need.

I moved back home before the work was done,
and as the space allowed retrieved my gear.
Locating stashed accouterments was fun,
except a pair of treasures disappeared.
I found my father’s dog tags pretty soon;
the mirror hid till Sunday afternoon.

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Not Neuro

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Perambulating, sometimes I ignore
the views I’m walking through. I organize
my errands, screen a daydream, focus more
inside than on the scenes before my eyes.
Returning to what’s present, I’ve been known
to wonder where I’ve wandered. I forgot
to note my own direction till I’m shown
by landmarks where I’ve been and where I’ve not.

Of late I quiz myself and answer too.
Am I to town or City? Bus or train?
I’m getting elderly; is this a clue
I’m losing it? Have I diminished brain?

The answer is a satisfying no.

Retired now, I vary where I go.

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Love is a Symptom

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With love the subject of the poems and songs,
and love the object people crave the most,
philosophers assume that love belongs
atop the list of human wants. A host
of minds agree on that, excluding mine.
We know our creature comforts must come first
but after those, I count a third of nine
before your love, before a life is cursed.

I value health so much I exercise.
I have to bring to choice integrity.
I need to like myself without disguise,
which makes me stand to battle entropy.
And when I seek those prizes, I transmit:
I broadcast and receive love’s benefit.

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The Omniscients

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My father was the guru of my youth,
responding to my questions patiently.
It felt as if he always told the truth –
he gave me answers with calm mastery,
or helped me understand we haven’t yet.
We ranged from old philosophy to song,
discussed theology, and didn’t let
our culture tell us where we both belong.

I felt completely safe with him, so much
so that I pushed against him as I grew.
He sheltered me till I could fly, and such
is what should happen now – you’re overdue.
No more do we need me appearing right;
get over the constraint – it’s out of sight.

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Yellow Roses

Yellow Roses

Some things I seldom do I did last week.
It started Tuesday morning, I believe.
I hurt my back with five-pound weights – I speak
of that not much or loudly, trying not to grieve
about surprises aging throws at me.
I knew I’d wrinkle, but nobody warned
of bruising, tearing, inability
to tackle jobs the younger I once scorned.

I moved my garden shears to handy reach.
I harvested two blooms before they bent,
and set them in a vase. I let pain teach
me I can take more time at tasks. Years went
and lately whip away – the weaving frays –
but odds are good I’m bound for better days.

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Fear of Irony

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I used to know a guy who spoke so well
he could have been a new Demosthenes,
until his brain misfired – like a spell,
he lost his speech in agonized degrees.

My children’s dad was always into sound –
acoustical control and music too.
Now isn’t it ironic that he found
he’s lost and losing hearing? Sadly true.

And as for me, the skill I value most
is honest memory. I want to keep
with clarity the episodes I’ve had.
I capture them in sonnets. I’ve a host
of metered recollections. Sure I’d weep
forgetting: Is this proof that I’ll go mad?

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Perturbation

perturbation

My mom insists her mother was a saint.
I never met the woman, but I’ve heard
the anecdotes forever. Mom would paint
her mother immigrant-heroic, stirred
to worship by (we thought) her early end.
“Her energy was boundless as her love,
she really was unique,” Mom would contend.
But when I quizzed old cousins, they spoke of
their other grandma, while their faces lit
with back-regarding fondness, and they hummed.
I wonder: was my mother’s mother fit,
who never praised, who hushed complaints, who dumbed
her daughters down? Mom’s fervor’s so profuse,
it intimates emotional abuse.

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Necked

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At least a score of years ago, I heard
I’ve osteo-arthritis near my neck.
I tend to clench; I took them at their word,
attended therapy, and felt the wreck
of nape and jawline start to ease a bit.
I learned some stretching exercises then
I still employ when it’s appropriate –
as soon as I feel creak and pain again.

Catastrophe crept up on me last fall,
when someone close and vital nearly fell
who worked so hard for breath he hit the wall
and stroked to almost-death. The doctors tell
us healing isn’t too much to expect.
But I’ve recurring pain now, in my neck.

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