I tried for moderation while away. I slowed, digesting sight instead of treat. In storing fresh impressions every day, I moved with care my mouth and hands and feet. Refraining from opinion, to delay a rush to judgment that would fail to meet success or help a personality, my aim was soft and softly tempered me.
Surrounded by degrees of discontent, amid affection spotted with disdain, I recognized and angled to present a difference in perspective. To refrain from an attempt to teach, beseech, or train, I sought instead to read from my own page. With softness, I said “try to entertain some patience till you reach an older age.”
Last night I took some sanctuary time. I sat receptive and congenial, and what I felt I cannot call sublime, but I experienced familiar pull. And tears from long ago then rinsed my eyes, enhanced my meditations, counseled me. What filled my thoughts presented a surprise, and gave me space to wonder presently.
This morning we spent time in talk and drinks of steeping tea and well-dripped coffee brew. I listened carefully to what she thinks, and tried to offer gently one or two suggestions from my age and knowing her. I pray some benefits may soon occur.
Two feel-good chemicals can circulate inside our mammal brains, I understand, that trigger happiness but don’t equate – they’re separate and distinct. For on one hand, the serotonin’s needed to command deep-seated satisfaction; dopamine is easier to purchase on demand, but doesn’t gratify as deep or clean.
Your words have power but it’s indirect. You won’t convince antagonists with facts. Such effort is a waste. Instead, connect the other with suggestion that attacks unquestioned stale assumptions. Sense distracts, but subtle and subliminal might win adjustment near miraculous. Impacts are possible with artful origin.
In transit to the compost bin to toss the morning coffee grounds, it caught my eye: a harbinger of coming spring, a gloss of blooming foliage 12 inches high. I planted neither seed nor shoot across that space between 2 bushes. I could try identifying this emergent gift, or simply ride its January lift.
I planned and penned this poem a week ago, intending it would post on my return. I packed to travel, but I couldn’t know what oddities would quirk or when I’d learn. I’d hug familiar bodies, voice concern and love as well, but other moods this week would rise – for 7 days I’d rest or churn – a lunar phase displaced to keep this streak.
Intending to reduce my speed in most endeavors, I assume that age will serve to aid me toward that goal. I used to boast (at least within) at work and walk, aswerve and weaving through obstructions, like a host of foes would block me but I plied my nerve and bested. I’m at peace now with a pace to benefit my limbs, my brain, my face.
Immersing in my bath last week, a weird sensation was occasioned for my head. It felt like water in my ear, appeared to be a drainage failure, but instead of dripping out, no posture I tried cleared the painless situation. When I read and someone peered, I learned of time’s attacks – I’m working to now to flush an age of wax.