The Cruise

Cruise

I’m thinking how to summarize this trip:
if I were more adventurous, I guess
I wouldn’t miss a day to leave the ship,
but disembarking ratchets up my stress.
I love to nest no matter where’s my bed –
what’s more, my cabinmate depends on me
to read the map, observe what lies ahead,
and even understand the currency.

I’m not complaining. Here the views are fine,
the room is adequate, the service great,
excursions mostly good, abundant wine,
and tasty food for which we never wait.
But scatterbrained behavior jars a nerve
(I have to beg these stanzas, to observe).

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Vanity

vanity

My vanity is asymmetrical.
No matter where I look there’s something wrong:
geometry, the knobs I have to pull,
the faucet taps, and how it takes too long
to feel its water warm into my palm.
Its crooked bottom edge disturbs my view.
One door is out of plumb. I’m staying calm,
but I may trade it in for something new.

Or maybe I’ll keep eccentricity.
This much irregularity can please.
It’s so unvain and yet called vanity!
The flaws at first disliked begin to ease
the months of chronic twinges in my neck.
I may decide I want to keep this wreck.

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Not Such A Good Day

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The toddler and his parents moved last week.
I skirted stacks of boxes, searched for books
and toys and coffee gear, in hide-and-seek
I didn’t need. I wasn’t charmed by looks
or feelings. Next I was by news dismayed —
my kitchen cabinets produced my frown.
We don’t know where they are, so work’s delayed,
and soon I learned my garden tree was down.

I think I started laughing then; too much
was going cattywampus, backwards, weird.
It triggered my resilience and a touch
of gratitude it wasn’t worse. I veered
away from fret and even kept my calm
when fielding a distress call from my mom.

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TYVM

 

Cottage May 27 2019

I visited my cottage yesterday.
I saw the shape of bathroom, kitchen, shed,
selected tones of grout, forgot to stay
to dump the mail, and caught a lift instead
to this my temporary lodging place,
supplied without a deadline by a friend
I’m getting used to living with. Home base
is shifted south for now, and I contend
with ventilation sounds instead of rain,
with window glass that only faces west,
a year-old cat we cannot seem to train,
a fold-out bed that serves as sofa best.
But honestly, the change that strikes me most
is how I treasure hours with my host.

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Skin

Skin

The more I read, the more I learn the lies
my cohort fed on, childhood to youth,
and through advancing age. It’s with surprise
I start to love nutrition’s fatty truth
and gape at facts about our insulin
long-known and hard-suppressed by published folk.
Established science falters, wearing thin,
while party lines appear as myth or joke.

The tenets fall like bowling pins when struck
by rolling evidence and weighty fact.
I sputter and I mutter what the fuck,
reviewing lab reports for their exact
results — unbiased science — and begin
applying fatty acids to my skin.

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Calluses

Berk2010

I’m six weeks homeless though I have a bed.
A dear companion chose to shelter me
throughout my big remodel. So instead
of customed comforts, naked privacy,
and writing space, I watch her TV shows
and talk at times I used to savor mute.
I juggle keys and where my walking goes,
confuse some dates and change what I compute.

Like growing calluses for some new skill,
I’ve hurt my neck attending to her chat,
too often turned one way. I’d better fill
a different chair. My gratitude’s intact,
but shopping bags today had too much heft,
and now I wince whenever I turn left.

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Eyebath

Eyebath

There come some days here, nearly every May,
when dirt and branch infect me with surprise.
I felt it first this year on Saturday,
as if a balm applied to soothe my eyes
became effective at the stroke of one.
Surrounded by the cleansing sweep of green
from trees and vines and bushes, lit with sun
and shadow-flirting – satin, velveteen
and rayon spangles blue and yellow made –
removed me from a selfish reverie.
I woke up dull but verdure so displayed
infiltrated and redirected me.
From morning teetering, on edge of pout,
the local landscape hued my sight about.

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A Season Off

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It’s eerie how contented I feel now,
expecting and anticipating stress
removing my home comforts, but somehow
while sleeping, eating, exercising less
I’m feeling satisfied, beyond reproach,
relaunched, exploring other neighborhoods,
as if I’d found a skeptic-burning coach
to challenge me to sample other goods.

I’m certainly less cozy now, but dream
of how exquisite nights are bound to be
with bed and bath available. I seem
suspended, stimulated, apt to see
a new perspective for analysis.
I have the time for comprehending this.

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The Opportunist

vicodin

I know an opportunist thief of pills.
She likes the gloss a light narcotic adds
to sedentary mornings. Norco kills
her appetite; a little oxy pads
her nervousness. She won’t shop on the street
for drugs — she guards against addiction’s curse.
She pilfers what she finds at friends’ — discreet
and sly, she tells herself she could be worse.

There’s little chance her friends will intervene.
The issue and the secret’s up to her.
Today she’s been imagining the scene
if ever she’s uncovered. Thoughts occur —
ideas emerge — the fantasy is dread.
Returning that last pill, she vapes instead.

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Sabbatical 2019

history books

I get some leisure time 2 days a week
and weekends too; I have since I retired.
It used to be to read or smoke, I’d sneak
a quarter hour from the work required
by kids and clients, husband, mother, friends.
I’m lately occupied with family
and office questions; reconstruction fends
me from anticipated apathy.

I’ve several to consider now, outside
myself, immediate, not hard to aid.
Some others’ short-term worries amplified
my urge to listen closely. Leisure made
me recollect it’s scholar’s origin.
I’ll let a month’s sabbatical begin.

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