The Last Label

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“Low maintenance” is how my kids describe
me now they’re grown and I’m at times their guest.
When they were young I fed them diatribe
and anecdote, but both of them have stressed
I wasn’t harsh or selfish. So I told
my brother I outgrew demanding ways,
but he maintains I wasn’t hard to hold
or hear at home. My mirror starts to craze.

I guess I was a trial for the men
who married me. Our linkage didn’t bloom,
because I was unheard and grumpy then?
(I realize now I needed my own room).
At 68, it hits me like a bomb:
I bought a careless label from my mom.

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The Other Fog

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Had to fog the house
to choke summer’s immigrants –
rat fleas and rat mites

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The Project

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In order to improve I have to move.
I mean it – that’s no Sunday metaphor.
The plumbing off, no other pipes in lieu
of it, I might abide the noise and more,
but I can’t prosper waterless in place.
I want the end; I’m not at home with means.
That means I have to abdicate my base
for 13 weeks, and dwell in stranger scenes.

But maybe I’ll get lucky where I land.
Perhaps I’ll be more comfortable away
and more content than anything I’ve planned.
If not, at least I’ll count down to the day
when I can move back home, to home enhanced,
repaired, refreshed and better-circumstanced.

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No Duh

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I think that I’m so smart but married twice,
two men it’s clear I didn’t clearly see.
And sure I paid a pained and heavy price,
but nothing made me plumb their mystery
until long after each had gone away.
A waiter tipped me off on that one’s drink,
and only recently did someone say
enough to make me note the other’s brink.

“Is there depression in your family?”
my baby’s bride inquired, and I said
“Not really. Some had strong anxiety,
or fear of crowds or driving cars instead.”
But then she pointed at my children’s dad.
Of course. That wasn’t anger. He was sad.

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Removal

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Disruption is a catalyst for growth.
Although my place will be improved by spring,
I’ll have to undergo a move I’m loath
to make, so others can be hammering,
removing and rebuilding to refine
dimensions and the cabinets and bed.
They’ll work with a considerate design,
but I’ll need somewhere else to lay my head.

Three months are weeks too many to impose
as guest, but thank you for the offer made.
My budget won’t afford a trip to those
I’ve always meant to visit. Though I’ve stayed
with my descendants well, a quarter year
is out. I’ll have to sublet someplace near.

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Pests

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My neighbor thought that she was getting bites
from fleas, although she doesn’t own a pet.
When I got bit my research led to mites
from rats beneath the house, who must sublet
from all the skunks and possums I observe.
I’m at a loss so yesterday I called
some experts I expect will have the nerve
I lack, to look at how I’m floored and walled.

My neighbor left her key with me today,
and I’ll defer departing here, to meet
the man I hope will drive the bugs away.
I’m starting to suspect we have discrete
but linked invaders at our separate sites:
in front some fleas from rats; in back some mites.

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Unwell

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Our ocean is too warm. Our forests burn
too often now, too widely, and the air
bears irritants, but most in power spurn
the obvious, the facts: that they impair
tomorrow with the corporate hunt for wealth,
as much as they denied tobacco’s curse,
or how asbestos stole from human health,
as glyphosate compounds to make us worse.

Manipulated by a stale romance,
policed by social media, we swell
with sugar tumors while a final chance
expires, as the sky and oceans spell
our doom. I sense disaster, not far off,
but maybe I’m contorted by this cough.

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Mattress Season

Mattress Season

Mattress season now:
university students
jettison bad beds.

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Movement

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When I was 12 years old my legs got weird.
They itched whenever I stood still at length.
A mottled rash on knees and calves appeared,
and though they never lacked accustomed strength,
I fretted and discussed it with my mom,
who said “Your circulation’s bad, like mine.”
Already hating them for size, that bomb
exploded any dreams that they’d look fine.

Within a year the issue seemed to go.
Except when as a freshman I took speed,
the rash did not recur. Why? I don’t know,
but I forgot near 60 years, indeed,
until last week, when illness stilled my thighs –
I’ve learned another good from exercise.

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Half-World Problem

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I’ve no complaints. I’m dull but feeling well.
Perhaps I need a problem to confront.
This may be TMI, or overblunt,
but I’m aroused by challenge like a bell
is pealed by pulling – a compelling spell
upon me. I’m alive when in the hunt
for answer or solution, splint or shunt –
it spurs me to experience and tell.

And maybe that’s the way we all should be.
I don’t pretend to know what’s best for you,
but my malaise is nothing of concern
compared to your cascades of apathy.
I’ll bounce within three days, for this is true:
I’m bound to find a lesson I can learn.

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