Skin

Posted on May 23, 2019 by sputterpub

Skin

The more I read, the more I learn the lies
my cohort fed on, childhood to youth,
and through advancing age. It’s with surprise
I start to love nutrition’s fatty truth
and gape at facts about our insulin
long-known and hard-suppressed by published folk.
Established science falters, wearing thin,
while party lines appear as myth or joke.

The tenets fall like bowling pins when struck
by rolling evidence and weighty fact.
I sputter and I mutter what the fuck,
reviewing lab reports for their exact
results — unbiased science — and begin
applying fatty acids to my skin.

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Calluses

Posted on May 21, 2019 by sputterpub

Berk2010

I’m six weeks homeless though I have a bed.
A dear companion chose to shelter me
throughout my big remodel. So instead
of customed comforts, naked privacy,
and writing space, I watch her TV shows
and talk at times I used to savor mute.
I juggle keys and where my walking goes,
confuse some dates and change what I compute.

Like growing calluses for some new skill,
I’ve hurt my neck attending to her chat,
too often turned one way. I’d better fill
a different chair. My gratitude’s intact,
but shopping bags today had too much heft,
and now I wince whenever I turn left.

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Eyebath

Posted on May 20, 2019 by sputterpub

Eyebath

There come some days here, nearly every May,
when dirt and branch infect me with surprise.
I felt it first this year on Saturday,
as if a balm applied to soothe my eyes
became effective at the stroke of one.
Surrounded by the cleansing sweep of green
from trees and vines and bushes, lit with sun
and shadow-flirting – satin, velveteen
and rayon spangles blue and yellow made –
removed me from a selfish reverie.
I woke up dull but verdure so displayed
infiltrated and redirected me.
From morning teetering, on edge of pout,
the local landscape hued my sight about.

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A Season Off

Posted on May 16, 2019 by sputterpub

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It’s eerie how contented I feel now,
expecting and anticipating stress
removing my home comforts, but somehow
while sleeping, eating, exercising less
I’m feeling satisfied, beyond reproach,
relaunched, exploring other neighborhoods,
as if I’d found a skeptic-burning coach
to challenge me to sample other goods.

I’m certainly less cozy now, but dream
of how exquisite nights are bound to be
with bed and bath available. I seem
suspended, stimulated, apt to see
a new perspective for analysis.
I have the time for comprehending this.

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The Opportunist

Posted on May 14, 2019 by sputterpub

vicodin

I know an opportunist thief of pills.
She likes the gloss a light narcotic adds
to sedentary mornings. Norco kills
her appetite; a little oxy pads
her nervousness. She won’t shop on the street
for drugs — she guards against addiction’s curse.
She pilfers what she finds at friends’ — discreet
and sly, she tells herself she could be worse.

There’s little chance her friends will intervene.
The issue and the secret’s up to her.
Today she’s been imagining the scene
if ever she’s uncovered. Thoughts occur —
ideas emerge — the fantasy is dread.
Returning that last pill, she vapes instead.

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Sabbatical 2019

Posted on May 13, 2019 by sputterpub

history books

I get some leisure time 2 days a week
and weekends too; I have since I retired.
It used to be to read or smoke, I’d sneak
a quarter hour from the work required
by kids and clients, husband, mother, friends.
I’m lately occupied with family
and office questions; reconstruction fends
me from anticipated apathy.

I’ve several to consider now, outside
myself, immediate, not hard to aid.
Some others’ short-term worries amplified
my urge to listen closely. Leisure made
me recollect it’s scholar’s origin.
I’ll let a month’s sabbatical begin.

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Enervation

Posted on May 9, 2019 by sputterpub

Berk2010

I’m suddenly too tired to be smart
in spite of all the coffee I’ve imbibed.
I feel too weak and vigorless to start
a project half as big as mine’s described.
Like when I drank too much, at 34,
and raced at home to get my contacts out
while still awake, I’ll home-improve before
I lose my drive and trade my plans for doubt.

I seek a bigger bed for better rest,
a soaking tub to warm and nurture me,
a kitchen that invites my cooking best,
appliances more fun to use and see:
a nest of safety, comfort and profound
organic sense, as long as I’m around.

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Discombobulation

Posted on May 7, 2019 by sputterpub

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The discombobulation hasn’t stopped.
I’m 3 weeks out of house and not too fussed,
but try as I’m attempting to adopt
new customs, I keep failing to adjust.
I’m looking for the toilet paper wrong.
I’m antsy missing in-home exercise.
I haven’t been without a printer long,
but lack has made me list. I had my eyes
wide-open when I left my tiny house;
I made the space to alter and improve.
I’m not unwell and hesitant to grouse:
I planned this course and knew I’d have to move.
Until the actual completion date,
excuse me if I fail to keep things straight.

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The Flock

Posted on May 6, 2019 by sputterpub

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Approaching Rockridge Station from the south
at 8 a.m. on Monday, in the cold,
a vision raised the corners of my mouth,
amused me to a pause, and soon cajoled
a chuckle — where the platform spans the street,
I spied a mass of passengers who stood,
commuters heading west to start a week
at work, apparently for livelihood.

Each form I saw was draped in City black
and seemed to hold a stationary pose
so vertical and hulking that in fact
that crowd appeared a flock of giant crows.

I didn’t think to take a picture then.
I’m using words to see those birds again.

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Well and Homeless

Posted on May 2, 2019 by sputterpub

Berk2010

I’m homeless now — I’m sheltered by a friend
and family, although my fortune’s fine.
My cottage needs repair. I’m set to spend
a fair amount pursuing new design:
improving or replacing most its parts,
updating goods for more utility
(and pleasure). I have permits. Now it starts.
I’m self-displaced from continuity.

It feels a bit like camping with a roof:
a long-term stay somewhere without my stuff.
I miss my coffee pot and shower pouf,
but I’m prepared for this — I have enough
to function. Now I’m trying every thing,
and I’ll be back before the end of spring.

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