Perturbation

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My mom insists her mother was a saint.
I never met the woman, but I’ve heard
the anecdotes forever. Mom would paint
her mother immigrant-heroic, stirred
to worship by (we thought) her early end.
“Her energy was boundless as her love,
she really was unique,” Mom would contend.
But when I quizzed old cousins, they spoke of
their other grandma, while their faces lit
with back-regarding fondness, and they hummed.
I wonder: was my mother’s mother fit,
who never praised, who hushed complaints, who dumbed
her daughters down? Mom’s fervor’s so profuse,
it intimates emotional abuse.

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Necked

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At least a score of years ago, I heard
I’ve osteo-arthritis near my neck.
I tend to clench; I took them at their word,
attended therapy, and felt the wreck
of nape and jawline start to ease a bit.
I learned some stretching exercises then
I still employ when it’s appropriate –
as soon as I feel creak and pain again.

Catastrophe crept up on me last fall,
when someone close and vital nearly fell
who worked so hard for breath he hit the wall
and stroked to almost-death. The doctors tell
us healing isn’t too much to expect.
But I’ve recurring pain now, in my neck.

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Absence of Outhouse

Absence of Outhouse

As soon as we had permits, there was placed
a lockless porta-potty at our curb.
Somebody tipped it once. Someone defaced
its side with paint. Its bulk did not disturb
my eyes, it didn’t stink, no neighbor yelped.
I’m sure the residents all understood
that sight and sound disruption can’t be helped,
whenever we improve the neighborhood.

A job forecast to run three months took six.
A cabinet debacle was the cause
(abetted by a range hood). Now the fix
is mostly done. The ladders and the saws
are gone, inspections passed, I’m glad to say.
And we returned the outhouse yesterday.

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Laddies of the Lake

Laddies of the Lake

At least two years ago, the city paved
our street again, at nobody’s request.
The company that won the bid behaved
as if they knew their work, and no one guessed
until they left how poorly they performed –
they failed to crown the street and nothing drained.
No matter whether weather steamed or stormed
we had a puddle lake, and we complained.

The city sought to blame the neighbor’s pump.
We called and wrote and got their vague replies.
They said they’d need a bid; they couldn’t bump
another job. Though anyone with eyes
could see the crown and curb were wrong in height,
they’re only trying now to make it right.

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Fans

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I love two people into watching sports.
I can’t assert I understand the draw.
Enthusiasm they insist supports
their teams – it matters – but I never saw
the evidence, and when I’m in the zone
(not often or heroic, but I’ve played),
it feels like I’m exerting hard alone,
not noticing the sounds a witness made.

And when they compliment a gracious loss,
and state that’s why all children ought to learn
by playing team athletics how to cross
from glad success to class defeat, I burn
with disagreement – competition’s fair,
but no kid needs a team to take her there.

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Arborism

Arborism

While classic symbolism’s long been held
for art produced in oil, words, and notes,
I saw, I read, I heard and I rebelled.
I argued only ignorance devotes
itself to elementary attitude,
like woman is the moon and man the sun.
To claim all forests dangerous is crude,
and meadows can’t be right for everyone.

My birthday is in winter. I like cold,
and all my life I’ve been in love with trees.
I’m not afraid of darkness. Though I’m told
by epics forests make calamities,
I comprehend myth’s fearful origin,
and I’ll take terpenes, shade and oxygen.

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On Rereading FF

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I found a vintage Heinlein on the shelf,
a yellowed paperback with tiny print.
I pulled it down to entertain myself,
and read 200 pages with a squint.
I’ve recommended it to kids and friends
without rereading what I loved when young.
But now I can’t abide the voice, the ends
so bald, the means bereft of tone or tongue.

While later Heinlein books proclaim his slant,
I see his bias smeared in pulp now, too.
Receptive to nostalgic charm, I can’t
identify a phrase that’s fine or true.
I finished it last night. The mystery
is whether I lacked taste or memory.

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The Redwood Deck

Redwood Deck

My cottage is a single room. Across
a deck and rocky spot my office shed
was built. The wood went soft; the stones grew moss;
I opted to replace them both. Instead
of mixing media or using stone
for every foot, I leaped to wooden planks.
It’s done. It looks as if the space has grown.
I gaze at redwood now, and murmur thanks.

An area I used to use as hall
between two rooms, is now a milled expanse
that begs to be enjoyed. Though leaves will fall
and birds will drop their marks, my plans advance.
I’ll stand an outside couch or table there,
and read or chat on wood in open air.

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The Genie’s Joke

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I thought I’d wish for wealth. But I soon learned
no matter what I saved or spent, or how
invested, I’d forego the power earned
from earning, obligated to endow.

Then specifying leisure time instead,
I planned to take the charm of no more work,
till I remembered effortless. My head
returned to labor and my heart from murk.

So I considered immortality.
As soon as I envisioned time’s demise,
I saw a bored and lonely, jaded me;
I’d rather sprint existence. I’m not wise
but I can forecast where three wishes drift:
my genius must refuse the genie’s gift.

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One Sad Day

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Perhaps the year was 1999,
the season fall, a Sunday afternoon.
While window-shopping with a friend of mine,
our focus was enticed by a balloon
affixed above a cage the Shelter set
upon the sidewalk, graced with pretty strays.
A yellow kitten drew my friend. They met
and formed a little family that day.

Her coat was tawny but her sex female.
She only moved inside two years ago.
She prowled or purred, and Rosie didn’t fail
until last month, when cancer made us know
her span was nearly at its end. That’s why
today my friend will help her Rosie die.

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