I need to slow the pace a bit. I ought to learn to act my age. That dash was inappropriate – I need to slow the pace a bit. I raced to you and tripped and hit the floor (the cause? our puzzle page). I need to slow the pace a bit. I ought to learn to act my age.
It never ends – as long as we’re alive events occur, good, bad, and interesting. A colleague 10 years over 65 fell yesterday. And that makes everything we planned to do be tentative, unsure. We think the cause was fainting after wine and crashing to her tiled kitchen floor. Now we await the diagnostic line.
Already she’d diminished at recall. The dreaded “A” was added to her chart. But now that she’s sustained this bloody fall, and though we think she has a healthy heart, she’ll probably be stuck here till her death. It never ends, as long as we draw breath.
A first-born 5-year old, with cheekbone bruise acquired on a Wednesday at his school, said “I don’t know” when asked – would not accuse or detail anybody acting cruel. His folks appeared accepting of each word, but happily they gave us space to chat. I told my buddy it would be absurd to not know how you got a mark like that.
He spoke to me of how his face was wrecked (another kid engaged in bully shit). I understood him trying to protect, but then explained it’s inappropriate to shield his caring parents from the truth (remembering my own first-child youth).
Last Monday shades of darkness were the rage. I woke to overcast and clots of rain, and then a crew arrived to build a cage of scaffolding around the house in front. They draped it in black netting as they stage the building for repair and shingle work the owners have arranged. Now we’ll engage disrupted while they clean and sand and stain, and I’ll just hunker in and act my age.
Addicted to a strident tone of voice, a heart ablaze with indignation’s heat, it pumps her up – encouraging her choice. And though regret succeeds it, she’ll repeat malfeasant tone and posture. We rejoice she’s working through a process to retreat from blaring out her livid points of view, which first give her excitement, second rue.
A funny smell, persisting for some days, befalls my nose and brain at times, and then it disappears like it was just a phase, and I forget till it occurs again. It’s nothing nasty, never smelled before – a little dry and peppery, benign I think (and hope – of course I can’t be sure, but I expect from death a bigger sign).
I’ve also noticed weeks when coffee’s taste is wrong – so off, I sanitize the pot. (I’ve almost had that Cuisinart replaced.) The problem’s here for days and then it’s not. I know the virus hijacks taste and smell, but I (except for age) am testing well.
They don’t need rain or food or much of dirt. Insecticide has no role in their growth. They may not be attractive, but no hurt befalls them from neglect. They bloom in both concrete and asphalt, able to exert their vigor – willing, drilling, never loath. They always seem to bear abundant seeds, and we, disdainful, classify them weeds.
They’ve started framing traffic signals now. Somebody must have studied gathered facts, and found a way to teach the drivers how to notice what already eye-attracts. A traffic plan made agencies endow ideas only esteemed by bureaucrats. The visible results make no one wary. You know the drill – they aren’t necessary.
I host disoriented dreams of late. My sleep is light – the borderline between awake or not is weak and inchoate. A rise to consciousness occurs without a sense of my location or the date. And what is interrupted, when I rouse? Particulars of puzzles that await my pleasant efforts with a pen or screen, and seem a natural way to recreate.