Stamina

I know smart people lusting to belong
among the class of writers who are famed.
They want to fashion fiction or a song
of which no other writer’d be ashamed.
Imagining the honors to be claimed,
the signings, the distinction day and night,
they dream of when success will be obtained,
but they can’t find the stamina to write.

As one they want to stand above the throng
of readers not considered, never named.
Distracted by the coffee, wine or bong,
and seldom putting ink where topic’s aimed,
they bide their time till inspiration’s flamed,
when only work gives brilliance to that light.
Intention’s by procrastination maimed,
but they can’t find the stamina to write.

Their cravings are consistent and so strong,
I don’t believe such passion can be blamed.
But how they try to satisfy it’s wrong,
and by no tactics little can be gained.
I want their attitudes to be reframed,
their efforts pushed to steady sturdy height.
Advising, they respond by looking pained,
but they can’t find the stamina to write.

It isn’t any secret. No one gamed
the system. No one put them in their plight.
The work produces more than can be trained,
but they can’t find the stamina to write.

(Ballade)

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Mask Alert

The buses still require masking here,
and most of them will give you one for free.
But there’s no substitute for bearing gear;
at end of day, they make no guarantee
your bus will have one left – uncivilly
too many take too many and discard.
Last night some would-be riders couldn’t be
allowed to board – unmasked, their way was barred.

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Spin

“I want the pill,” our ancient mother said,
last week when she was suffering fatigue
and urgent emptying of waste, instead
of constipation’s regular beleague.
She has her mind. No terminal disease
besets her at the age of 96.
Distrusting all her meds, she voices pleas
of petulance, impatient for a fix.

We calmly then responded and explained
it takes some time and interviews to kill.
“Oh pooh. I gave it to you dad,” she claimed.
Of course that wasn’t so. There was no pill,
she wasn’t there, and it’s no mystery –
she always has revised her history.

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Sex

I think I wasn’t very good at sex,
she stated recently, age 70.
As if there were tutorials, complex,
athletic, something like pornography.
As if a mate who does my man expects
his way with her to mimic his with me.
I wonder they don’t know, though we share parts,
the act involves both genitals and hearts.

(Ottava Rima)

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Friendly Racket

The cottage where I live is in a yard
behind a big brown-shingled Berkeley box
containing four apartments. It’s not hard
to relish quiet, rarely needing locks,
for I’m unseen, unheard, just on my guard
enough. It’s seldom anybody knocks.
But lately maintenance work in front employs
a friendly crew who can’t help making noise.

(Ottava Rima)

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Too Old to Level Up

My bedtime habits were unchanged last night.
The hour was the usual, the bed
as comfortable as ever, and the light
no brighter than the customary glow.
Yet sleep was slow to come to me. No fright
or worry filled my mind, but drowsy dreams
successively sustained my inner sight.
Too old to “level up,” today my head
is solving every puzzle, quick and right.

(Magic 9)

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Sleep Position

A side sleeper since I was 17,
I used the port side of the marriage bed
and didn’t know how much that choice would mean
(no matter where we moved we kept our edge).
When we divorced I switched, and then was seen
by kids to occupy the other half.
For 30 years, my place has been (between
the sheets) on left-side shoulder, hip and head.
Of late I ache. I’ll try to change routine.

(Magic 9)

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Metering Me

There isn’t any need to hurry.
Fortune is deferring worry.
Favors I don’t have to curry.
Though my vision’s often blurry
that’s from floaters, quite benign.
I can now afford a soft decline.

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Moving Gently

The disconnect between my mirror face
and how it feels within has grown so vast,
I’m nearly into dodging any place
reflecting my own visage back to me.
But first I’ll try to cultivate some grace
(imagining the worse the future holds).
I’ll practice balance and reduce my pace
(there’s rarely now a reason to move fast).
I’ll try to notice well before erase.

(Magic 9)

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Kindergarten

My buddy started big-kid school last week.
He trotted off without a backward glance.
But he was up before his clock could speak,
and after school his bowels marked his pants
(who’s not since birth endured that circumstance).
He’s brave, and teeming with intelligence,
but probably as nervous as his aunts,
as passionate as we, and as intense.

(Huitain)

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